My dream today

I was so touched by a dream i had today. I dreamt i was one of two girls who ran away in the dream.
It pans out something like this:



1) scenes of entering a courtroom, flanked by police and paparazzi. my left hand was injured and wrapped up in bandages. my girl friend made up the stairs slower than i did, and had to be helped up by police officers, amidst the frenzy of camera flashes.

2) at the courtroom we were seated in front of the judges' pulpit. my friend said in my dream "So we got front seats huh?" I laughed and flipped the papers in front of me to find out what we were guilty of.

3) seems like we were discriminated against for being lesbians, and for causing trouble during our travels. i guess we were missing persons. We sorta 'eloped'

4) my girl friend has cancer. she was defending herself on the stand. she said "I rather be sentenced to death than to be living with people who want us dead"

she got agitated and fainted, which caused the people there to be agitated and a din ensued.

5) I, of course, was worried, and immediately replaced her to give our defence. I showed a series of slides to the jury and judge. that we meant no harm in our elopement and during our travels, these photographs showed our happiness. Why can't we strive for our own happiness?


6) while looking at the photos, the trouble we caused came back to my memory.

we eloped in a van. there was this town we went to that we stayed in. I went out to buy food for us, when i saw the other girl kissing a goth emo guy who looked like marilyn manson in the van. I was devastated. but i asked her, 'is this really what you want?' she proceeded to agree. since she had cancer, and god knows when she would kick it, i let her go. they went off to somewhere else, some apartment building.

i got a phonecall from her the next day from her, she was screaming for help and got cut off. I was in a panicked state, and asked for help from a mechanic at an auto store nearby. he was sweet and went with me to save her.

I dont know what happened here, but when we came out the building, the two guys were no where to be seen, the apartment was on fire, and my hand was injured. we had caused a lot of trouble, it seems.


7) our love for each other didnt fade during court. we took care of each other, and if we had to die, we died together. A question was asked, how did we meet each other? what kind of surroundings made such an impenetrable bond that created such drama and destruction? I replied, we met when we were 19, at a fireworks display during a carnival.

8) I had a momentary flashback of that time. I went with my dad. he was a loving man who didnt want me to go astray. the carnival was crowded and everyone gathered near the fireworks display to get a better view.

I asked my dad, "Could I go and see the fireworks?"

He smiled and let me go.


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the dream ended here. and i was so touched by the depth of love and meaning inside it.
Could I go and see the fireworks?

Tears welled up in my eyes even as I wrote about the dream.

it didnt help that today during SoE, i read about CrystalClear's news about her daughter running off with another girl. Im very sorry to hear that, no parent should be subjected to such agony... but when you're a teenager, all you wanted to do, was to learn and see the world for yourself....nevermind the danger.

My thoughts are with her daughter, Shannon.



PS: Shannon is my sorta middle name i chose for myself.